Independence (part 2)

I'm really aware that, living alone, I've become somwhat secretive.  That's what makes this blog so scary.  I don't always answer truthfully when someone asks, "What have you been doing?"  Or, "Can we get together?"

I've always had a secret life.  As a child, I was taught that "mooning" and "wool-gathering" were inappropriate.  One was expected to find productive activity in the company of others.  So I took myself on long walks or hid myself in long grass in order to let my imagination create a different world, a world where I wasn't "odd."

As I grew up, I created a personna that met with the world's expectations - a real party girl!  But now, I think I'm ready to let "her" retire, too.  What does this have to do with independence?  It's a bit muddled.  But I think that independence will allow me to let this personna go.  AND, if I lose independence, will I have to re-assume it?